is there room in the bad i don't need to be the frontman
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This semester has so far been a long drawn buzz. I’ve made friends and habits, then lost some. I’m compelled to look back and run some diagnostics on the events of the past few months. However, if you asked me now what I did today, last week, or all year, you’d catch me scampering for some strings to tie it all together. It’d be fair to point out the dramatics of my reply if I were to say I’ve just been dissociating for the longest time, but it wouldn't be too far from the truth either. My therapist used to ask me that, and it would always put me in such a tough spot because I always found recollecting to be unforgivingly labor intensive. In her defense, she was probably trying to help me map out my experiences that my current feelings are derived from. Unfortunately, all I can tell now for sure is what I’m feeling now, and if I’m going to draw a portrait of my mind, it would have to be a freeze frame of its current state. There are some trade-offs in trying to understand the present by looking only at the present, but I don’t think that’s completely useless. People make trade-offs between stills and dynamics all the time. Maybe my therapist should read up on The Heisenberg Uncertainty Principle.
is there room in the bad i don't need to be the frontman
is there room in the bad i don't need to be…
is there room in the bad i don't need to be the frontman
This semester has so far been a long drawn buzz. I’ve made friends and habits, then lost some. I’m compelled to look back and run some diagnostics on the events of the past few months. However, if you asked me now what I did today, last week, or all year, you’d catch me scampering for some strings to tie it all together. It’d be fair to point out the dramatics of my reply if I were to say I’ve just been dissociating for the longest time, but it wouldn't be too far from the truth either. My therapist used to ask me that, and it would always put me in such a tough spot because I always found recollecting to be unforgivingly labor intensive. In her defense, she was probably trying to help me map out my experiences that my current feelings are derived from. Unfortunately, all I can tell now for sure is what I’m feeling now, and if I’m going to draw a portrait of my mind, it would have to be a freeze frame of its current state. There are some trade-offs in trying to understand the present by looking only at the present, but I don’t think that’s completely useless. People make trade-offs between stills and dynamics all the time. Maybe my therapist should read up on The Heisenberg Uncertainty Principle.